[Church, you'll never get another shot at fixing all of this. That's what had tipped the scales, wasn't it? Of all the good points Wash needled him with. Not just the not knowing. It would have haunted him, probably. Yeah. But he's pretty sure he could have lived with that. Not the insistence that it was, in particular, his fight. He didn't know Alpha. He had no stake in what happened to Alpha. No desire for revenge for what happened to someone he wasn't, someone he didn't know. It was about him, and yet, it was never really about him, was it?
Not just finding out about you, but finding out about everyone close to you as well.
Fixing it. For everyone else. If he had a chance to ease things, to undo some of the pain, to fix anything for the rest of the fuckers and dipshits he'd come to know, if any of it had even remotely been his fault--or even if it hadn't--didn't he owe it to them to see it through? Fix it. For everyone close to him.]
You don't know me at fucking all, do you? That doesn't sound anything like me! That's not me! Stop compar--just-- [He could just choke on it. They're not the same. He wasn't replaced. Was it just that easy? If Delta had survived, or Iota, would one of them had taken his place? Interchangeable pieces of himself?]
Don't sound so fucking choked up about it anyway! After what he did to you?! Isn't it good riddance he's gone--that they're all. gone?
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[Church, you'll never get another shot at fixing all of this. That's what had tipped the scales, wasn't it? Of all the good points Wash needled him with. Not just the not knowing. It would have haunted him, probably. Yeah. But he's pretty sure he could have lived with that. Not the insistence that it was, in particular, his fight. He didn't know Alpha. He had no stake in what happened to Alpha. No desire for revenge for what happened to someone he wasn't, someone he didn't know. It was about him, and yet, it was never really about him, was it?
Not just finding out about you, but finding out about everyone close to you as well.
Fixing it. For everyone else. If he had a chance to ease things, to undo some of the pain, to fix anything for the rest of the fuckers and dipshits he'd come to know, if any of it had even remotely been his fault--or even if it hadn't--didn't he owe it to them to see it through? Fix it. For everyone close to him.]
You don't know me at fucking all, do you? That doesn't sound anything like me! That's not me! Stop compar--just-- [He could just choke on it. They're not the same. He wasn't replaced. Was it just that easy? If Delta had survived, or Iota, would one of them had taken his place? Interchangeable pieces of himself?]
Don't sound so fucking choked up about it anyway! After what he did to you?! Isn't it good riddance he's gone--that they're all. gone?