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counterblows) wrote2018-05-28 06:55 pm
counterblows) wrote2018-05-28 06:55 pm
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 | So you feel entitled to a sense of control And make decisions that you think are your own You are a stranger here, why have you come? Why have you come, lift me higher, let me look at the sun Look at the sun and once I hear them clearly, say Who, who are you really? And where, where are you going? I've got nothing left to prove Cause I've got nothing left to lose See me bare my teeth for you Who, who are you? Now you're moving on and you say you're alone Suspicious that this string is moving your bones We are the fire, we see how they run See how they run, lift me higher, let me look at the sun Look at the sun and once I hear them clearly, say Who, who are you really? And where, where are you going? I've got nothing left to prove Cause I've got nothing left to lose See me bare my teeth for you See me bare my teeth |
| ϵ AGENT WASHINGTON ϵ |
| My asymmetrical and non-linear understanding (misunderstanding of) the past few years are only like a dog who bites someones hand. It's reflex; by the time the newspaper is swatted at it, it's too late. The dog has forgotten everything but shame and self defeat - but not the why. |
| Militant, direct, and justice-oriented, Agent Washington is the product of far too many variables tunneling in on him at once. He has assumed role after role as it was required of him over time - soldier, military operative, recovery agent, prisoner, antagonist, and finally, leader and friend. After the events on Chorus, the cocktail of relief, concern, and grief of that war's conclusion had left him all but drained, and more than ready for a moment of respite. With the Reds and Blues, Washington felt closer to the man called "David" than he had in years, even if he was still achingly far from the mark. It was easy for him to fall into step, upon his arrival; easy for him to become the bastion of solidity and leadership that kept him together back on Chorus. The landscape and circumstances around him are always changing, but Washington is nothing if not adaptable. He considers that one of his few assets, and it's certainly had its use here. |
α canon | β cross-canon | φ friend | ψ complicated | γ mistrust | θ trust | ||
| Ω hate | π protect | ¿ unknown | Δ acquaintance | ю happiness | ε remember | ||
| η fear | Σ dangerous | Ξ avoid | Ш neutral | Б owe you | Ѻ keep watch |
ɒ navigation ɒ
≪ c a n o n ≫
≪ c r o s s - c a n o n ≫
≪ d r o p p e d ≫
ɒ canon ɒ
leonard church (alpha) ε red vs. blue
α - ψψψ - π - ε - БББ
[artist]
Shut your mouth 'cause you're never quiet
You put it out when I tried to light it
This is a race that I will not lose
I'll chase it 'til my legs give out
What is it you want from me?
To become what you would be?
But I would rather take my chances
At running like the wind to take advantage, but until then
Go ahead and cast your little judgmental glances
I'm not defenseless
Stomp aloud and flaunt your oh-so pompous stature
I'm where perception plays an
Important role in how you control them
I'm not going to waste my breath on
Giving up to who you want me to be
It's what I want when nobody had my back
It's what I need when I'm feeling all alone
And what I want is just to know to myself
Is that nobody else will break me down.
When I do what I love
I find myself looking back again
And as I wait for you all
To judge my every move that I make
You'd love to watch me go down again
And I would come to know that
You'll never support this
Wash owes him for everything he asked of him, and for the aftermath, and for what he did to his team after the fact. He owes him for guilting him into risking his life and facing death and worse. He owes him for that, and more than he knows how to quantify.
He just has no idea how to go about dealing with it.
agent texas ε red vs. blue
α - ψψψ - ¿¿¿ - ε - Б
[artist]
Lord, you can't change the world
If you don't try
For that I live
For that I die
Oh, when times get hard
You can't give in
If you need somewhere
You got me my friend
Oh, you're gone
You want to keep your strength in
Then what do you do?
But happiness
Oh, I know it's free
Don't trust the darkness
Just do it right
Let it shine for the heartless
Let it shine through the night
Can't hold me down
Oh, they want to keep me down
Oh, they can't hold me down
They can't keep me
Lord, can't keep me down
Oh, can't keep me down
Oh, can't keep me down
It can't be that simple. No part of it can be that simple.
He's not about to assume it is.
agent maine ε red vs. blue
α -
φ- ψ -γθγθγθ- ¿¿¿¿ - Б - εεε[artist]
Have I been awake too long?
I'm taking this way too far
Have I been awake too long?
And then it hits me somewhere right between the eyes
Because I know the cost of time and I've paid it all my life
Near or far, no matter how close you are
Hopelessly united in entropy
Could it be, the presence of memory
Is all we are, and all that we'll ever be?
Have I been awake too long?
I'm taking this way too far
Have I been awake too long?
And then I tell myself it's just so far away
Back to the old routine that fills my every day
Some pray the holy ghost will save them from the grave
But I know the cost of time and I've paid it all my life
But Maine has no knowledge of that. He only remembers up until the day of the heist, when he retrieved the briefcase as a secondary objective. His throat is unscarred, his mind still as sound and whole as anyone's could be, after the intensity of the war they worked so hard to stop.
If there was some way to hold him here, to tether him in place, so that he never has to see what comes after -
Wash would give just about anything for that.
ɒ cross-canon ɒ
β mass effect β
legion ε mass effect
β - ¿ - Δ
[artist]
What if there's nothing more to me?
I'm just skin and bones
There's no mystery
What if you're just an empty shell?
All your spare parts were used up by someone else
What if there's no way to explain things like deja vu and acid rain?
What if we're all just broken shelves, full of someone else's thoughts?
What if there's nothing more to us?
We're just carbon-based
We're just pixie dust
What if life is a magic trick?
Some quick slight of hand just to make us think
What if consciousness can't expand
And we fool ourselves with absurd demands?
What if there is no point at all?
We just grow up to fade away.
What if there's nothing more to me?
I'm just skin and bones.
What if there's nothing more to you?
What if there's nothing left for us?
Will anyone remember?
Does it all just simply turn to dust?
Will we be alright left alone tonight?
Will we be alright left alone tonight?
Will we get lost slowly drifting through these dead and lonesome heights?
β voltron: legendary defender β
keith kogane ε voltron: legendary defender
β - Δφ - Ш - π
[artist]
You're the mouth of the tunnel just before the dark
I'm the headlights speeding through the stars
And we're lost in the spaces of who we are
And we move through the nights 'till we take it too far
Hold it together when we move apart
Let the landscape burn like a dying art
Driven by the energy in our hearts
We were built to be reckless from the start
'Cause we're getting lost and found when we're carried away
I feel it all around, even in our mistakes
And when we're up, we're down, in the evening space
We're getting lost and found, when we're carried away
When we're carried away
The truth gets tired when we lie awake
So we dive into dreams that they can't sedate
Breathe in and out, to go all the way
Trip 'till we're fixed in a higher state
And the light just flickers past our faces
We're living out a dream 'cause we're always wasted
And the light just flickers past our faces
We never stay still when we're chasing places
He's stricken by the same anxieties that plagues every leader - that plagues all the best leaders, because only the worst of them are self-assured to the point where they don't succumb to self-doubt - and haunted by guilt when there's anyone he can't save. This, all of this, is an intensely familiar feeling. Wash, for his part, can't say he knows how to help with that struggle. He can only give Keith the assurance that he's not the only one to live through it.
Keith marks a solidity in a world that's anything but, and that makes him marginally more trustworthy than most others.
lance ε voltron: legendary defender
β - Δ - Ш - π
[artist]
Inch by inch
We grow to something more
But we're unaware
Of how high we've gone unaware of
Gaining air
Rushing past the twilight zone
Getting scared
Afraid of all I've never, never known
And I know I should have my head in the clouds
But this altitude’s got me searching for solid ground
Solid ground
Step by step
We keep moving on
But how do we know
That we're moving on
To where we should go
Leaning in
Rushing past the comfort zone
No fear now
Embracing all I've never, never known
And now that I have my head in the clouds
I'm gaining altitude and I'm never coming down
No
Lance presumes himself the weak link in his team in such a way that Wash can't help but find familiar. He remembers too well how it felt to be the rookie whose most notable achievement was getting a grappling hook stuck to his balls, and being regarded as the worst on his squad. The problem is that Lance seems to have taken this sort of assessment to heart, and there's no knowing what might reverse the downward trajectory of his thinking.
takashi "shiro" shirogane ε voltron: legendary defender
β - Δ - Ш
[artist]
Look, I didn't power through the struggle
Just to let a little trouble, knock me out of my position
And interrupt the vision
After everything I witnessed, after all of these decisions
All these miles, feet, inches
They can't add up to the distance
That I have been through, just to get to
A place where even if there's no closure, I'm still safe
I still ache from trying to keep pace
Somebody give me a sign, I'm starting to lose faith
Now tell me: how did all my dreams turn to nightmares?
How did I lose it when I was right there?
Now I'm so far that it feels like it's all gone to pieces
Tell me why the world never fights fair
I'm trying to find
Home
A place where I can go
To take this off my shoulders
Someone take me home
It's been a long time coming
Someone take me
Now tell me: how did all my dreams turn to nightmares?
How did I lose it when I was right there?
Now I'm so far that it feels like it's all gone to pieces
Tell me why the world never fights fair
I'm trying to find
I found no cure for the loneliness
I found no cure for the sickness
Nothing here feels like home
Crowded streets, but I'm all alone
From the brief interactions Wash has had with the man, he can determine that Shiro is similarly intent and duty-bound, just like the rest of his team
β final fantasy β
β critical role β
beauregard ε critical role
β - Δ - Ш
[artist]
Am I brave enough?
Am I strong enough?
To follow the desire
That burns from within
To push away my fear
To stand where I'm afraid
I am through with this
Cuz I am more than this
I promise to myself
Alone and no one else
My flame is rising higher
I've been sacrificed
My Hearts been cauterized
Hanging on to hope
Shackled by the ghost
Of what I once believed
That I could never be
What's right in front of me?
I don't believe I'll fall from grace
Won't let the past decide my fate
Leave forgiveness in my wake
Take the love that I've embraced
I promise to myself, me and no one else
I am more than this
I am the fire
I am burning brighter
Roaring like a storm
And I am the one I've been waiting for
Screaming like a siren
Alive and burning brighter
I am the fire
- Nathaniel Orion
Still, there have been times where she's proven influential to reason, and she's even helped him. The latter case might have had more to do with her needing something to do with herself, but it was still an act of goodwill that she didn't have to bother with.
β captive prince β
laurent ε captive prince
β - Δ - Ш
[artist]
Welcome to your life
There's no turning back
Even while we sleep
We will find you
Acting on your best behaviour
Turn your back on mother nature
Everybody wants to rule the world
It's my own design
It's my own remorse
Help me to decide
Help me make the most
Of freedom and of pleasure
Nothing ever lasts forever
Everybody wants to rule the world
There's a room where the light won't find you
Holding hands while the walls come tumbling down
When they do I'll be right behind you
So glad we've almost made it
So sad they had to fade it
Everybody wants to rule the world
Everybody wants to rule the world
He's capable of turning into something truly terrible, apparently. Wash would like to quietly ensure that never happens.
ɒ dropped ɒ
agent carolina ε red vs. blue
α - φ - θ - π - ю - ε - Б
[artist]
Let go of everything you have inside
Let it show, you no longer have to hide
It's almost dead silence when the lights go out
I like to make believe that I have the show shut down
'Cause then I feel relieved when the bass slowly sounds
A crystal light shines and echoes through the crowd
The people erupt and I become a part of the
Machine that moves directly to the beat and I
Am one with you and everyone who's heart is here
Let yourself go, this is the only time to feel alive
This brings me out to you and I'll say
I'll scream it 'til my heart comes out of my chest
And leave it to the music to transcend the rest
This life is just a perfect fit for a mess like me
So many reasons to live; I need to let them show
I've made the hardest mistakes; I need to let them go
I feel the tempo rise. My eyes open wide
I feel the well that is my heart overflow, and now I'm losing control
These flashing lights got me lifted off the ground
What could go wrong? What could go wrong
When all of us are together?
Never thought it would come down to this
For the first time in my mind, everything's coming to life
I'll paint a picture in my head, for the best
I'll be the person to let us all see everything hard to define
He'd never want to admit to being relieved that she's now on these islands along with him. But he trusts her leadership and capacity to keep a cool head far more than he trusts himself. She's an anchor, a reminder, an edifice, and some part of the instinct he acquired in Freelancer must have remained - the one that says he can hold out until Carolina comes through, because when Carolina comes through, that's when the fight's been won.
zelda ε the legend of zelda: breath of the wild
β - π - Δ
[artist]
Got woken in the night
By a mystic, golden light
My head soaked in river water
I had been dressed in a coat of armor
They called a horse out of the woodland
"Take her there, through the desert shores"
They sang to me, "This is yours to wear"
"You're the chosen one, there's no turning back now"
The smell of redwood giants
A banquet for the shadows
Horse and I
We're dancers in the dark
Came upon a headdress
It was gilded, dark and golden
The children sang
I was so afraid
I took it to my head and prayed
There is no turning back
There is no turn
There is no turning back
There is no turn
There is no turning back
There is no turn
If no one else is going to look out for her, Wash is bent on ensuring she doesn't end up dead because of it. It's the very least he can do.
lucas miller ε the adventure zone
β - ψ - γ - Ѻ
[artist]
We float before the sea at dusk
In heavy mist, in glitter dust
I smile before I want to
I smile because you want to
Down by the shore, a funny foal
Who bit my wings and ate them whole
You left before I come to
You left before I come to
We took to hills into the trees
I hit my head and bit the leaves
You left before I come to
You left before I...
Shanks of slate fall to the beach
Wrapped in life in ultra greens
Pools teem with tiny feet
And whorls of tired anemones
You left before I got to
You left before I got to
Shake my little soul for you now, toy
And I settle up into a world of noise
I'm a man of many tricks and tools and joy
With a battery of guilt on which to poise
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
I smile because I want to
He's probably terrified of Wash, and for a decent enough reason. At the moment, Wash isn't particularly in the mood to sway him from that instinct. For now, he's content to call out Lucas's shit when he sees it. That seems to be enough.
agent connecticut ε red vs. blue
α - φ - ψ - θ - π - ю - ε
[artist]
Life's just a pay stub on death
Only less diligent
And when the two collide
It's no coincidence
The lights are on and everybody's home
The only thing suicidal here is the door
We had a good run
Even I have to admit
Life's just a pay stub on death
Only less diligent
Hell or Glory
I don't want anything in between
Then came a baby boy with long eyelashes
Daddy said, "you gotta show the world the thunder!"
We didn't come to compete
This is a demonstration
Even the young ones become irrelevant
They always bring up how you changed
Never the same person when I go to sleep
As when I wake up, as when I wake up
Hell or Glory
I don't want anything in between
Then came a baby boy with long eyelashes
Daddy said, "you gotta show the world the thunder!"
He said "Bring the thunder!"
And then one day, C.T. isn't dead anymore. She's alive and engaged and has an entire story of a world Washington has never imagined, has done things he can't even fathom, and has lived an entire life separate from him. And now she's here, aching with loss and longing for people Washington has never met.
But she's his best friend.
He missed her. And, incredibly, she missed him too. The most they can do is be there for each other, and do their best with that. Hold out hope that, someday, that might lead them to some sort of peace.